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Parent !!!

As a young adult, I demand some space of my own, yet my parent seem to be ignoring my demand. Unlike most other, I don't really need much. All I need is to go hang out with my friends more offend [mall, friend's houses, school`s clubs, ETC], yet they make it sound like I'm trying to run away from home or something like that. Also, every time I try to make my own decision, they would butt in and force me to do what they want [Example: I earned 150$ last 2 months in school, and my mother just took 100$ to give it to my grandmother without asking me. Seriously, I don`t mind, but she could at least ask me]. A lot of time, I wish my parent would respect me more and give me some personal space. PS I bet they read my text, for they secretly know a friend of my confess to me in my freshmen year
Yay, November is almost and over, but I still have so many things left to do. I been doing more homework, yet I still need to do more than right now. Am I disappoint at myself for that? I would have say no, because over time, I`ve learn that changing is a slow process, so it is better to take it slow than to sweat yourself over it. I been hanging out and getting in contact with friends more offend, and that was one of my goal. I'm really proud of myself, for it used to be a hard process. beside all those, I still need to talk more to my mentor, raising up my grade, and stop lying. Anyway, that is all for today !!!

The Career Expo. today was fun, yet I find myself very cranky that day. I thought about it and didn't like what I did or what I say. Therefore my goal is to fix my personality, so this won't happen again. [Respectful, kind, feminine, straight-forward....just like my mom]

I Just went to the mall with Yen to help her to find a job, today. [Damn] its remind me of how many things I want to buy with so little money, I wish my parent would let me get a job, but then I don't know if I can keep up my grade. Life/reality is such a harsh place to live in. You can never really fully fulfill your dream, for my goal is so small and simple , but it is difficult for me to achieve it.

Parent can be suprising !!!!

- I don't talk much about my teens problems with my parent, but as I grow up to be an adult, I begin to see myself as a girl, so right now I'm in a transition of a tomboy become a girl. This period is really frightening, because I don't look and don't know if I can be one, for I'm not hot/cute/attractive. Yet, my mom, out of no where, say something that is very surprising and an inspiration to me:"There is no such thing as a beautiful women, but only those who doesn't want to be beautiful." [Thank you mom for making my day]